'tis the damn season - Taylor Swift

If I wanted to know

Who you were hanging with

While I was gone

I would've asked you

It's the kind of cold

Fogs up windshield glass

But I felt it when I passed you

There's an ache in you

Put there by the ache in me

But if it's all the same to you

It's the same to me

We could call it even

You could call me 'babe' for the weekend

'Tis the damn season

Write this down

I'm staying at my parent's house

And the road not taken looks real good now

And it always leads to you

In my hometown

I parked my car

Right between the methodist

And the school that used to be ours

The holidays linger like bad perfume

You can run but only so far

I escaped it too

Remember how you watched me leave

But if it's okay with you

It's okay with me

Time flies

Messy as the mud on your truck tires

Now I'm missing your smile

Here me out

We could just ride around

And the road not taken looks real good now

And it always leads to you

In my hometown

Sleep in half the day

Just for old times' sake

I won't ask you to wait

If you don't ask me to stay

So I'll go back to LA

And the so-called friends who'll write books about me if I ever make it

And wonder about the only soul who can tell which smiles I'm faking

And the heart I know I'm breaking is my own

To leave the warmest bed I've ever known

We could call it even

Even though I'm leaving

And I'll be yours for the weekend

'Tis the damn season

We could call it even

You could call me 'babe' for the weekend

'Tis the damn season

Write this down

I'm staying at my parent's house

And the road not taken looks real good now

Time flies

Messy as the mud on your truck tires

Now I'm missing your smile

Here me out

We could just ride around

And the road not taken looks real good now

And it always leads to you

In my hometown

It always leads to you

In my hometown

Late Night Words: Tulisan Yang Bikin Overthink

Ada 2 buah pilihan

Orang yang menyayangimu

Atau

Orang yang kamu dan dia saling sayang

Bisakah kamu pilih salah satu? 

Pretty sure mayoritas pilihan jatuh pada pilihan ke-2

Memilih orang yg sayang kamu dan kamu juga sayang dia

Katanya dengan begitu, semua bisa saling

Saling melengkapi

Saling mengisi

Saling berbagi

Saling semuanya

Tapi

Karena sama-sama merasa dirinya disayangi satu sama lain

Apakah ada yang tahu kalau suatu saat

Salah satu pasti ada yang berharap? 

Berharap kebaikannya dibalas kebaikan juga

Berharap keikhlasannya dibalas keikhlasan juga

Berharap apapun yang salah satu diantaranya lakukan, yang lainnya juga melakukan exactly hal yang sama

Berharap

Adil

Apakah ada yang tahu kalau suatu saat

Semua 'saling' bisa jadi 'tidak saling'? 

Tidak saling sayang

Tidak saling mengisi

Tidak saling berbagi

Tidak saling melengkapi

Tidak saling semuanya

Lagi-lagi karena merasa biar adil

Sungguh skenario yang sangat jauh dari indah

Lalu pilihan tersebut membuat kita memikirkan pilihan pertama

Memilih orang yang menyayangi kita

Melihat usahanya

Melihat ketulusannya

Melihat kemampuannya

Will he do any thing for me? 

Most importantly, anything for my best? 

Take a good and gently care of us

Tidak mau membuat kita sedih

Tidak mau membuat kita susah

Tidak mau membuat kita merasa kurang

Tidak mau membuat kita terluka

Always keep their eyes on us

With heart full of love

Sincere effort

Everlast

Tidak berharap kebaikannya kembali

And never take us for granted once we accept and allowed him to stay

Sampai waktunya bunga dalam hati kita tumbuh

Perasaan sayang itu tumbuh

You feel loved

So loved

Karena usaha merawat yang selama ini kita dapatkan darinya

Until the time you can accept and love him back with pure and sincere heart with no buts and expectations

And you both live happily

You both live sincerely

You both loved

Good scenario, I guess

Look how now it seems like option 1 is blinded pick and option 2 is conscious pick, right? 

Really punny

But then you know that we can't see what future brings

Whatever you choose

Choose wisely

Be conscious

Every options have their own ups and downs

Every options have their good sides and bad sides

If it feels right, be grateful

If it feels wrong, it's okay to regret a bit

But then go on

Take a responsibility of it

We're only human too

Everything can change

Just make sure you enjoy the ride

You know that this last sentence is naive but, 

Keep seeing the beautiful in every thing

Be kind and honest

Kindness keeps the world afloat

Believe that kindness brings you to very much beautiful things in the end

Kebaikan akan menyaring semuanya hingga akhirnya kebaikan pula yang akan kamu terima

Bahkan kalau itu harus menyingkirkan orang-orang yang kamu pikir sayang kamu padahal hatinya tidak

Karena semesta tau, itu tidak baik untukmu

Universe will make sure you get the kindness that you deserve

A Strike From The Past: Questioning

Why keep coming to my dream? 

Why took a very good and gentle care of me? 

Are you still thinking of me? 

Or

Is it just me who really miss a very good and gentle kind of care?

Because it felt so good

And so pure

And so real

I felt

Loved

It takes me

To the last time you, yourself, directly met me

Said that you'd borrowed my math book

I didn't think I'd said "yes, you can come."

Because I was so afraid back then

I don't know why I'm always afraid of you

But I said "yes, you can come."

Then you came

Parked your car in front of my house

I welcomed you

Even made you a cup of tea

Grabbed my math book and gave it to you

And we were talking

And talking

Four eyes

Face to face

For the very first time to us

And pretty sure it was for the last time too

I was really sure that there wasn't any thing except you borrowed my math book

And you would use it for learning

Because you said you will face a test

You talked about you're going to college abroad

Cool, I said

And that was it

You didn't say any thing anymore

And then the time was going late and you got to go home

Still remember you and your car went away

And that was it

Actually, what you wanted to say? 

Actually, what you really wanted to ask? 

Was it really just a math book? 

With that effort and guts? 

With that finally-you can-asked-me-then-I-allowed-you-to-come-and-visit-me-directly-to-my-house, did the math book really matter?

IT WAS A FUCKING MATH BOOK

Well

It was just for a math book, right? 

Or

I was the one too naive? 

Too dumb? 

Well

It was just for a math book

Yes, for sure

Let's end it there