Disappointed

why disappointed?

because you expect too much...

so, stop

Wonder

We're not alone, we're a lotSeems like a togetherness, whenever we're around
Those laughs and tears
And smiles and silences
And conversations

I can see you lie
Yes, you do
Between your words, I can see
I keep stare at you
Even when you stop your story
Before you realize
Before you catch me
No one see, but me

I stare at you
And wondering
Why are you lying?
Why lie?

I stare at you
And make sure
Hope it's not a lie
But it is

I stare at you
Then you see me back
You got that look
You know you trapped

I stare at you
Give you that look
Smile and smirk
Then gaze into something else
Pretend it's nothing

I know you know that I know you lie
I know you know that I see it
But why?
why lie?

Then I understand that it doesn't matter
I know, if you lie, it means like I, We, don't deserve to know,
or too hard to explain, or it's embarrassing for you, 
or something else
I know you've been thinking of it
to not tell to anybody
to us
to me

But I can see you lie
And it's okay...


(This is a writing from March 2015 I just re-read from my 'sacred' book, and I think it's worth to post in here...)

Some Lines

In your life you'll do things greater than dating a boy on a football team

But I didn't know it at 15

(Taylor Swift - Fifteen)

Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday but I realize some bigger dreams of mine

(Taylor Swift - Fifteen)

The best people in life are free~

(Taylor Swift - New Romantics)

It's all fun and games 'til somebody LOSES their MIND

(Taylor Swift - Wonderland)

We play dumb but we know exactly what we're doing

(Taylor Swift - New Romantics)

He's so tall and handsome as hell

He's so bad but he does it so well

(Taylor Swift - Wildest Dreams)

This love left a permanent mark

This love is glowing in the dark

(Taylor Swift - This Love)

The way you move is like a full on rainstorm and I'm a house of cards

You're the kind of reckless that should send me running but I kinda know that I won't get far

(Taylor Swift - Sparks Fly)

Nice to meet you where you been?

I could show you incredible thing

(Taylor Swift - Blank Space)

...and you, love, the game!

(Taylor Swift - Blank Space)

Darling I'm a nightmare dressed like a daydream

(Taylor Swift - Blank Space)

Hey what you're doing with a girl like that?

(Taylor Swift - You Belong With Me)

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you? Been here all along so why can't you see? You belong with me~

(Taylor Swift - You Belong With Me)

We were both young when I first saw you..

(Taylor Swift - Love Story)

You can hear it in the silence

You can feel it on the way home

You can see it with the lights out

You're in love

True love

(Taylor Swift - You're In Love)

The rest of the world was black and white, but we were in screaming colors...

(Taylor Swift - Out Of The Woods)

Love is a ruthless game, unless you play it good and right

(Taylor Swift - State of Grace)

These are the hands of fate..

(Taylor Swift - State of Grace)

I've found time can heal most anything and just might find who you supposed to be..

(Taylor Swift - Fifteen)

Losing him is blue like I never known, missing him is dark grey all alone, forgetting him is like trying to know somebody you've never met

(Taylor Swift - Red)

Did you have to do this? I was thinking that you could be trusted

Did you have to ruin what was shining now it's all rusted

(Taylor Swift - Bad Blood)

...and life was never worse but never better

(Taylor Swift - Wonderland)

So if you come in my way... JUST DON'T!

(Taylor Swift - Bad Blood)

Oh, it's so sad to think about the good times, you and I

(Taylor Swift - Bad Blood)

Haven't you heard what becomes of curious minds?

(Taylor Swift - Wonderland)

When you started crying baby I did too..

(Taylor Swift - Out Of The Woods)

And when we go crashing down we come back everytime..

(Taylor Swift - Style)

And there were strangers watching

And whispers turned to talking

And talking turned to screams

(Taylor Swift - Wonderland)

This night is sparkling don't you let it go

I'm wonderstruck blushing all the way home

I'll spend forever wondering if you knew I was enchanted to meet you

(Taylor Swift - Enchanted)

This love is good

This love is bad

This love is a life back from the dead

(Taylor Swift - This Love)

The lingering question kept me up

2 am who do you love?

I'm wondering 'til I'm wide awake

(Taylor Swift - Enchanted)

...and it was enchanting to meet you

(Taylor Swift - Enchanted)

Lanterns burning, flickered in the mind for only you

(Taylor Swift - This Love)

Please don't be in love with someone  else

Please don't have somebody waiting on you

(Taylor Swift - Enchanted)

Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything, and everybody believed in you?

(Taylor Swift - Innocent)

I'm so glad you made time to see me 

(Taylor Swift - Back to December)

And I just wanna tell you 

It takes everything in me not to call you

And I wish I could run to you

And I hope you know that every time I don't, I almost do

I almost do

(Taylor Swift - I Almost Do)

It's probably better off this way 

(Taylor Swift - I Almost Do)

And you stood there in front of me just close enough to touch

Close enough to hope you couldn't see what I was thinking of

(Taylor Swift - Sparks Fly)

Honey, life is just a classroom

(Taylor Swift - New Romantics)

Wish you knew that, I miss you too much to be mad anymore and I wish you were right here right now it's all good, I wish you would 

(Taylor Swift - I Wish You Would)

We're all bored 

We're all so tired of everything 

(Taylor Swift - New Romantics)

Guess you still don't know what I never said 

(Taylor Swift - I Wish You Would)

You always knew how to push my buttons 

You give me everything and nothing 

(Taylor Swift - I Wish You Would)

Jadi ini adalah penggalan lirik dari lagu-lagunya Ms. Swift yang menggambarkan isi hati gue dalam banyak hal. Kadang ada hal yang ngga bisa gue ungkapin dengan kalimat yang benar sehingga seringkali stuck di kepala dan membuat gue pusing. And I thanks to Ms. Swift who can do it beautifully. That's why banyak dari lagunya yang gue suka.

Because at least our story relate to one Taylor Swift's song.